New Glimpses...
Ok, so maybe I'm the only person who has this happen....but the other day I was sitting at my desk in the counseling office and I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. I found a much more mature looking, actually sophisticated, woman I hadn't recognized before. Something about being in that setting, doing what I do....well, it will age a woman! I'm not sure I know the woman in the mirror at times. She is being transformed so quickly that I can barely keep up.
I mean really, when did I grow up? And if I'm grown up, then why do I still have all these child-like fears and concerns? I have resolved myself to believe that God's in the business of giving "new glimpses". I can't see perfectly. I wear contacts or glasses. All the time! I'm imperfect. But God does see perfectly. My reflection to Him, is always the same. He KNOWS me! I'm the one who doesn't know me! The real me. The redeemed me! This is the person I am learning to accept. Learning to behave like. And learning to adore.
So I'm catching new glimpses. I walk through doubt just like the rest of you. I think to myself, "Am I doing the right thing? Are my kids doing well? Have I made the right decision? Am I on the right track?" And quite honestly, I don't always like my own answers. But then, something miraculous happens when I just keep putting one foot in front of the other. God ushers me along and gives me more "reflection" moments where I see a glimpse.
Folks, I don't have a clue what's in my future. I just know that the more I look in the mirror, the more I want to see. There are days I want to go backwards. It's less stressful there. Right? But it's also the "been there done that" mentality. Who wants to wake up and do the exact same thing every single day? (Now my routine oriented friends are offended....sorry!)
Seriously, we have to desire different. We aught to desire things like: Impact, Difference, Change, Purpose! But oftentimes we get stuck on valuing things like: Comfort and Safety!
So where's the bridge point? The life lesson?
Try something different. Do something you always said you wanted to do. Take a risk. Believe in the dream. Do LIFE! And be sure to share God's story along the way. Someone needs a message of Hope in the Adventure!
**This post is dedicated to my dear friend Anna. Anna, I'm proud of you sister! You dreamed, purposed, and accepted what God put in your path. Enjoy Hawaii my friend! Aloha...and God speed. Share His story! I miss you already.**
I love you - and you've always been mature and sophisticated in my eyes. (But then, compared to me, who isn't mature and sophisticated?)...HaHa!
Thank God that He looks at the Heart (1 Samuel 16). We see these poor reflections of ourselves and others...and strain to see the true self more deeply(1 Corinthians 13:12).
And I know we can't see as deeply as we will one day - it's part of our fallen condition. But if ever God gave someone eyes to see beyond the surface...to at least catch a glimpse of who people really are...then He gave that gift to you. You are especially gifted and equipped to do exactly what you are doing, and to be exactly who you are.
I am so proud of you for stepping out past the shallow waters of your own fears, into what God has in store for your life. I'm so glad to be a friend, lover, and partner with you along the way.
Sometimes I look at parts of my own life and think I've settled for less. And in some ways, I have. But when it comes to me and you, I never have to say I've settled for less.
You are the be all and end all of everything I imagined love could be. I love you & I can't wait for the next adventure in our path!!!
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Thanks for your encouragement Laura... I'm tearing up a bit. You are such a great friend to me!
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Awww, you are so sweet. I was just stopping to by to say that I miss you and so enjoyed our talk the other day, you are such an encouragement. Maybe one day I will get a shout out! LOL!!
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